Anxiously Waiting to Praying for Another Day

I really do not have much to say. I feel anxious lately. There are so many things that I am waiting on... counting down the days until we close on our new home. Counting down the day until I finish my last class at Tech (November). Counting down the days until I walk across the stage to graduate in May. Counting down the days to start a family. Yet, I am fully aware that I am counting my life away and one day I will beg God for just one more moment with my parents, one more moment with my own children, one more moment. Funny how we anxiously wait for time to pass and then beg God to slow it down at the same time. I hope that after this chapter is over, I can learn to live for the now. I am very excited about being in Monroe. I have enjoyed having the opportunity to live other places, but as the old saying goes... "There is no place like home". I've been blessed with several homes with my husband, at my parents, at Trav's parents, at the Smith/Woodall home. Yet, now that we are moving to Monroe, I can be connected with so many I love, and get to return to the house Trav and I share. :) I'm thankful God is making things fall together. I also have a peace about leaving this home to a very good family. I like to think these walls here in Hodge will host a multitude of happy memories, just the way our new home will for us. It's a family of four (with the fourth being a child on the way). I smile thinking of the life that will be breathed into good ole 2005 Cypress. They are gracious people, even willing to let us live here until our house closes. Moving is rough. Emotionally it is grueling. I run across the most dear things to my heart that I have tucked away and hidden from finding. The memory boxes that grow dust, but beg to opened as you come across them. I sat in the floor crying like a baby while holding my grandfather's obituary the other night. It's funny how easily I have suppressed my grandparents absence, but one piece of paper can make me lose it. My husband was comforting though, and I am thankful he just lets me be an emotional woman. Then there was the old picture boxes of mine and Trav's that are so hard to face. It holds our past and I refuse to let either of us trash the old pictures that shaped us to who we are, but man oh man those things are getting put in the attic. I do not like knowing Travis ever dated anyone else, but dear old me! So we put a little duct tape on those memory books. :) My sister is expecting. Bailey Grace Smith will be the perfect addition. Every girl needs a sister, so glad Gracie will have one that lives with her and shares her deepest darkest secrets and tags along. I feel I'll relate to little Bailey, since I was the younger sibling. HAHA I know Jennifer will teach sweet Gracie all of the ropes of being a big over protective sister. In all honesty though, that baby girl will be our blessing and her personality will flow right along with the rest of my family. I wonder if she will be outgoing like Gracie, or shy? I just know she will be the perfect addition to the family, just wish Jen would let me play a little John Mayer for her while in the ole womb. haha School keeps me busy, I swear chapter guides takes me hours on top of hours. I know it's worth it though, I feel like Tech truly has shaped me to be a better teacher. I also believe that I'll never stop improving and that education lasts a lifetime. I am looking forward to meeting my new class. So far I have met three of my twenty, and I am pleased to say all three of those little pupils are just darling. All very nice parents as well, I am praying that all 17 others seem so eager to play and learn with me. I am also praying for patience and happiness throughout the school year. I want to be one of those teachers that children look back on fondly and I want my students to come out super smart and ahead of the game. Anyways, I guess I should get some sleep. Class tomorrow shall come soon enough. LoVe, Christina