My friends--very few people who are surrounded by me really know me, these days I barely remember who I am with the rustle, bustle of life. I am a deep thinker though, who covers it up with a smile (which is genuine, none the least). I obsess over thoughts and people call it a bad thing. I love that I am OCD and over emotional in some odd ways, because when I do something I do it 150% and when I care about someone I do it 150% also. OCD makes me good--emotionally drained--but good at life. My medicine now keeps me moderated and sometimes I just forget to take it. I feel more balanced in life now despite the fact I have a 100 things on my plate. It's hard to describe, but I am happy with where I am in life. I can now look back at life and realize how I am a large puzzle God is putting together in HIs time and in HIS way. I used to feel so lost about life and OBSESS over that, if you read my deep and sad journals you would see the darkness of the pages. I would write about God, but looking back, I did not trust giving my problems to him. I felt guilty for asking for guidance, when there are sick and good people in the world. Now, as I reflect being older, I realize God could take my problems. He is a great and mighty God who can heal the sick and help me if I only seek Him.
I ramble a lot. I enjoy rambling. It's therapy in a blog. Honestly, I could care less of opinions of this blog. This is me.
I am listening to the rain and soft piano of an art dvd I just completed watching. I am compelled to go buy classical music on my ipod. That's thinking music. The music I am generally surrounded with on "popular" radio stations do not provoke emotions or thoughts. This music and the rain--it does.
The sunrise is a thinking moment for me to. I love my drives. Sometimes I do not listen to radio at all, but take in my surroundings. This morning, I pondered, how great it is to finally find the one God intended me to be with. I used to look for the perfect man, but I now realize there is no perfect man or person, only a person that's perfect for me. My mom heard him singing before we ate the other day, and pointed out that I have ALWAYS sang before I ate. ALWAYS. Odd tid bit, but I never noticed that Travis and I had those things in common. He betters me. Honestly, he does. When I tear up over a B, well actually before I can he praises my efforts and makes me feel like I am worth something much bigger than a grade on my transcript. If people knew him like I know him, they would understand why even on my worst days I can muster up a smile. I had love wrong in my head, it's not all mushy gushy romance, it's real. It's good days, bad days, and everything in between. He's my best friend and there is honestly nothing that I can not tell him. I love how predicable he is, how I know I'll get a voicemail when he gets to work that will begin with "hey babe" every time and end with, "I love you". I love that we can dance around like crazies when LSU wins a game, or just have serious talks about God and life. People will never know him like that, and that is what makes me love him. I have brought out a side in him that only he knew, and he has brought out a side of me that only now he knows. It's really hard to explain, but I just did my best. I love that I waited on him and didn't settle. I'd wait a million more days if it meant knowing that he loves me.
Anyways, now back to art. I need to take my Rothko test, bless his heart, he had an amazing life as an artist. He wanted people to feel his painting emotionally...just as I secretly hope for people to feel the life I have in me and the love I have for making friends.
Until next time ---
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
You are Cordially Invited to Christina Marie Gordon's College Graduation
May 19th at 2:00 a long time goal will be completed. I know, I know...most of my friends have already been there done that. College wasn't like that for me though, it was more of a journey of "Who does God want me to be"? It was His path that lead me where I am today. I take none of the credit. I'm just blessed that HE provides me strength. I have always been a good student, ok, rather obsessive is better word. I have two B's on my college transcript (which I consider to be like big ugly marks on my pretty piece of art). The rest are A's, and I am not saying this to brag. I am saying how relieved my BRAIN will be to quit having to be perfect in May.
My journey started in 2005 with my best friends Ana, Amber, Laura, and Elaina by my sides at the big ole "ULM". It was fun, honestly, I don't remember much that I learned, but I remember the experiences. I remember the day I started: Ok here's a story:
It was a good 104 degrees outside for ULM PREP and Elaina and I roll up wearing jeans (thinking we had to). We then decide on our 15 minute break (yeah we're dumb) we had time to go home to swartz to change. (We did get back late). Well I realized I need to shave my legs, so I did it dry!! Needless to say, as my legs itched at school Sage Morris (what then was Hancock) handed me some lotion. After rubbing it in, EVERY PORE of my leg began to pour blood out streaming down my legs. (What a way to impress the new "college guys". In my ID, I look traumatized. I help my prep bag over my legs all day b/c it was BAD! LOL LOL Not my brightest moments. The days came and went and I honestly remember the friendships I built more than the classes. When I remember: What was college like?
I remember Bat Man (a guy who rode his bicycle with his unbuttoned shirt flying with his speeding trike) stealing my seat in Tucker's class and Ana was like look batman it's her seat! He knew his nickname for the record (he liked it).
I remember studying like a BAZILLION notecards in the library with Ana and some dude who I'll never remember his name! The library has odd ghost like noises.. and a person who slurped their milk too loudly for Ana's likings. I remember that night.
I remember biscuits and gravy with 2 pieces of bacon for $2.33 in the morning at the "Wig~Wam"
I remember the day it DOWN PouREd and to be a good friend I walked Ana across campus to her car with a shared umbrella and the winds of Hurricane Katrina put that one into the Bayou with one gust of wind. We laughed until we cried that day!
I remember classes with Dr. Low--who had the cutest british accent--and Becky and I always cracking up at something and Courtney Andrews (then Miller) was with us too!
I remember ALL of my classes with Laura and Terri! haha my horrible date stories were our amusement that got us through McLeLand's class! *DO NOT ASK WHAT CHIPPER MEANS!* It is not British. I remember getting in trouble for asking the girl to turn her Christmas JINGLE BELLS MUSIC PLAYING SONGS up during his HARD should have be 500 level tests.
I remember Heather introducing herself as a bride to be! LOL And Tucker shooting that idea down! (Married lots of years now!)
I remember Amber, Elaina, and I in Dr. Bell's class with Squeaky and Mario. Oh and the lady who always sat like in the super front and bought him a coke every day, (God bless her soul).
I remember Dr. T's computer class with Megan M. and eating pizza in the computer labs that he bought us. (Rebels)
I remember Megan Bowman and I with our Cherry Cokes tailgating our first college games!!
I remember Jessi and Ashley eating my burned pizza and singing this one particular Taylor Swift song quite often (DO NOT SAY WHICH LOL)
I loved school, while I have always hated it. Ok, I say that I hate it, looking back I have loved it. It has made me grow so much and made go from being a determined girl to a determined woman. I know I took time off, but I am ok with that. I took the road less traveled. I took time to grow up and THEN went back to be who God intended me to be. I'll never be ashamed of that.
I appreciate the people along my path who have lead me where I am today.
I appreciate the phone calls from my family and loved ones who listen to me cry when I'm sleepy from work and have boo koos of school work to do.
I appreciate Travis being a loving man, and bringing a joy to my heart that made me want to be better. Though I will graduate for myself, I am doing it to make my family and him proud. He brought me out of a depression few knew about, I used to cry alone a lot. Though no one knows us like I do, trust me he brought back the "real" me. He is so supportive of my school work and praises me for my accomplishments. When I found out I was in the top 15% of my class he danced next to me.
Oh my family.....the calls they have endured. Hearing dad say, "You can do this, you are not allowed to quit once you've found your calling" For mom to say, "This too shall pass" when I am running on fumes...for my sister to be there for one night of fun to break up the vicious work, eat, homework, bed--cycle. For my brothers deep intellectual conversations about my classes.
Oh thank you God, I appreciate you most of all. Thank you for the strength. Please keep your hands on me the next 7 months.
My journey started in 2005 with my best friends Ana, Amber, Laura, and Elaina by my sides at the big ole "ULM". It was fun, honestly, I don't remember much that I learned, but I remember the experiences. I remember the day I started: Ok here's a story:
It was a good 104 degrees outside for ULM PREP and Elaina and I roll up wearing jeans (thinking we had to). We then decide on our 15 minute break (yeah we're dumb) we had time to go home to swartz to change. (We did get back late). Well I realized I need to shave my legs, so I did it dry!! Needless to say, as my legs itched at school Sage Morris (what then was Hancock) handed me some lotion. After rubbing it in, EVERY PORE of my leg began to pour blood out streaming down my legs. (What a way to impress the new "college guys". In my ID, I look traumatized. I help my prep bag over my legs all day b/c it was BAD! LOL LOL Not my brightest moments. The days came and went and I honestly remember the friendships I built more than the classes. When I remember: What was college like?
I remember Bat Man (a guy who rode his bicycle with his unbuttoned shirt flying with his speeding trike) stealing my seat in Tucker's class and Ana was like look batman it's her seat! He knew his nickname for the record (he liked it).
I remember studying like a BAZILLION notecards in the library with Ana and some dude who I'll never remember his name! The library has odd ghost like noises.. and a person who slurped their milk too loudly for Ana's likings. I remember that night.
I remember biscuits and gravy with 2 pieces of bacon for $2.33 in the morning at the "Wig~Wam"
I remember the day it DOWN PouREd and to be a good friend I walked Ana across campus to her car with a shared umbrella and the winds of Hurricane Katrina put that one into the Bayou with one gust of wind. We laughed until we cried that day!
I remember classes with Dr. Low--who had the cutest british accent--and Becky and I always cracking up at something and Courtney Andrews (then Miller) was with us too!
I remember ALL of my classes with Laura and Terri! haha my horrible date stories were our amusement that got us through McLeLand's class! *DO NOT ASK WHAT CHIPPER MEANS!* It is not British. I remember getting in trouble for asking the girl to turn her Christmas JINGLE BELLS MUSIC PLAYING SONGS up during his HARD should have be 500 level tests.
I remember Heather introducing herself as a bride to be! LOL And Tucker shooting that idea down! (Married lots of years now!)
I remember Amber, Elaina, and I in Dr. Bell's class with Squeaky and Mario. Oh and the lady who always sat like in the super front and bought him a coke every day, (God bless her soul).
I remember Dr. T's computer class with Megan M. and eating pizza in the computer labs that he bought us. (Rebels)
I remember Megan Bowman and I with our Cherry Cokes tailgating our first college games!!
I remember Jessi and Ashley eating my burned pizza and singing this one particular Taylor Swift song quite often (DO NOT SAY WHICH LOL)
I loved school, while I have always hated it. Ok, I say that I hate it, looking back I have loved it. It has made me grow so much and made go from being a determined girl to a determined woman. I know I took time off, but I am ok with that. I took the road less traveled. I took time to grow up and THEN went back to be who God intended me to be. I'll never be ashamed of that.
I appreciate the people along my path who have lead me where I am today.
I appreciate the phone calls from my family and loved ones who listen to me cry when I'm sleepy from work and have boo koos of school work to do.
I appreciate Travis being a loving man, and bringing a joy to my heart that made me want to be better. Though I will graduate for myself, I am doing it to make my family and him proud. He brought me out of a depression few knew about, I used to cry alone a lot. Though no one knows us like I do, trust me he brought back the "real" me. He is so supportive of my school work and praises me for my accomplishments. When I found out I was in the top 15% of my class he danced next to me.
Oh my family.....the calls they have endured. Hearing dad say, "You can do this, you are not allowed to quit once you've found your calling" For mom to say, "This too shall pass" when I am running on fumes...for my sister to be there for one night of fun to break up the vicious work, eat, homework, bed--cycle. For my brothers deep intellectual conversations about my classes.
Oh thank you God, I appreciate you most of all. Thank you for the strength. Please keep your hands on me the next 7 months.
Friday, July 29, 2011
New Beginnings/Exciting and Nervous
At this time next year I'll be decorating my first classroom as a lead teacher. That is really exciting. However, I am still super excited to decorate JoAnna and my safari room this year! :)
However, you have to walk before you crawl.... I have the following Quarters coming up at Tech to get me there:
Fall- 3 classes or "9" hours which is full time at Tech
Winter- 2 classes or "6" hours
Spring- 3 classes or "9" hours (again full time)
Summer- 2 classes or "6" hours
So 10 Classes stand between me and freedom....oh I am ready....but terrified.
It can be done.. with God's strength and support from my family, Travis, and friends it can be done. I am telling myself this to reassure myself that I have the knowledge and strength to do this.
I'll be working full time and being a full time student. I am not complaining, I do this all by choice. I did it to myself when I quit school in 2008. I hated being an English major though, and when I found out the administration made a "mistake" in my graduation date I couldn't handle it. However, I am SO thankful that I quit. God has a way of changing your path in his way. I felt at the time it was best and it was. Had I not quit, I would have never found CCS. CCS is the school that gave me a job without asking questions. I did not want it, to be honest the thought of working sounded terrible to me. I was unhappy with life in general and I didn't know what I wanted to do. I was in a rut. It was Kitty Head that gave me a chance to work with the after school program. Here I fell in love with children. The four year olds in that class are still etched into my head. I was nothing more than an after school girl, but I made it my goal to be a real teacher to them. I read books, played games, colored, and through this I fell in love. I remember the first day I knew I was emotionally connected is the day a little boy got a toy car thrown at his head. It busted a blood vessel and needless to say it was a bloooody mess. I now know due to further education that teachers are supposed to remain calm to ensure the child. I did not know that then and cried just as hard as him as I walked covered in his blood to Mrs. Kitty's office crying. (Actually, I think I cried harder than him). I went home and realized how much I cared.
Then Brittany suggested that I ask to be a sub. I got called ALL the time. I felt like one of the group even then. I loved it, it was then I decided to apply for the full time teacher's assistant job. I could sense a family and unity with the ladies I subbed with and I knew it was where God wanted me to be. I even enrolled in my CDA classes at Delta before I obtained the position. I now have my CDA and have 96 hours under my belt. That's a lot of tears behind that, lol, when I get stressed I cry. I stared at my transcript tonight. I like browsing over the classes that I have taken, though they are kind of random now since I am general studies to graduate quicker... I like to feel that I am well rounded. 32 classes down (35 if you count my Delta CDA classes), 10 to go. This can be done and will be done. :) I have made all A's so far at Tech while working full time. I know boasting is bad and I do not share my grades for "show off reasons" I post it because I do find that it's ok to be proud of accomplishments that have a lot of work behind it. I have worked super hard to get where I am today. I talk to Laura Pritchard, an old English Ed. major friend of mine, and some of our sophomore classes were probably the hardest and most challenging classes I have ever taken!! LOL I do not know why I wanted to share that, but I am so thankful for the "chipper" memories of ULM. I have fond memories of being a freshmen watching Ana be late for class with her green book bag and having my buddy Scott talk about fishing. I also enjoyed telling my dear friend Mrs. Terri Scott and Laura my HORRIBLE date stories. I do like Tech better though for where I am in life now for curriculum purposes, but my young days at ULM are still precious to me and who I became.
I go to the beach Monday. It's the last big shin dig before school time fun begins. I am excited to see what children God puts in our lives.
Enjoyed the trip. It was nice seeing the Robert's family and we had a nice time in New Orleans.
Travis says that when I look back 10 years from now school will be a blur, but I will be better for it. Lord, I pray so.
Pray for my mother, she keeps having cysts come up? They say it's not cancerous, but I still freak out. They are also seeing signs of osteoperosis (sp?) I detest the aging process. You work hard your whole life, and right when you can slow down just a little bit your body starts giving out. It seems cruel to me, but God has a plan for us all. He uses us for His work and aging it just apart of that process.
I am super thankful to God for Travis. I know that true love is hard to find. When I am with him, I am with my best friend. He does not give himself much credit, but he is AMAZING.
However, you have to walk before you crawl.... I have the following Quarters coming up at Tech to get me there:
Fall- 3 classes or "9" hours which is full time at Tech
Winter- 2 classes or "6" hours
Spring- 3 classes or "9" hours (again full time)
Summer- 2 classes or "6" hours
So 10 Classes stand between me and freedom....oh I am ready....but terrified.
It can be done.. with God's strength and support from my family, Travis, and friends it can be done. I am telling myself this to reassure myself that I have the knowledge and strength to do this.
I'll be working full time and being a full time student. I am not complaining, I do this all by choice. I did it to myself when I quit school in 2008. I hated being an English major though, and when I found out the administration made a "mistake" in my graduation date I couldn't handle it. However, I am SO thankful that I quit. God has a way of changing your path in his way. I felt at the time it was best and it was. Had I not quit, I would have never found CCS. CCS is the school that gave me a job without asking questions. I did not want it, to be honest the thought of working sounded terrible to me. I was unhappy with life in general and I didn't know what I wanted to do. I was in a rut. It was Kitty Head that gave me a chance to work with the after school program. Here I fell in love with children. The four year olds in that class are still etched into my head. I was nothing more than an after school girl, but I made it my goal to be a real teacher to them. I read books, played games, colored, and through this I fell in love. I remember the first day I knew I was emotionally connected is the day a little boy got a toy car thrown at his head. It busted a blood vessel and needless to say it was a bloooody mess. I now know due to further education that teachers are supposed to remain calm to ensure the child. I did not know that then and cried just as hard as him as I walked covered in his blood to Mrs. Kitty's office crying. (Actually, I think I cried harder than him). I went home and realized how much I cared.
Then Brittany suggested that I ask to be a sub. I got called ALL the time. I felt like one of the group even then. I loved it, it was then I decided to apply for the full time teacher's assistant job. I could sense a family and unity with the ladies I subbed with and I knew it was where God wanted me to be. I even enrolled in my CDA classes at Delta before I obtained the position. I now have my CDA and have 96 hours under my belt. That's a lot of tears behind that, lol, when I get stressed I cry. I stared at my transcript tonight. I like browsing over the classes that I have taken, though they are kind of random now since I am general studies to graduate quicker... I like to feel that I am well rounded. 32 classes down (35 if you count my Delta CDA classes), 10 to go. This can be done and will be done. :) I have made all A's so far at Tech while working full time. I know boasting is bad and I do not share my grades for "show off reasons" I post it because I do find that it's ok to be proud of accomplishments that have a lot of work behind it. I have worked super hard to get where I am today. I talk to Laura Pritchard, an old English Ed. major friend of mine, and some of our sophomore classes were probably the hardest and most challenging classes I have ever taken!! LOL I do not know why I wanted to share that, but I am so thankful for the "chipper" memories of ULM. I have fond memories of being a freshmen watching Ana be late for class with her green book bag and having my buddy Scott talk about fishing. I also enjoyed telling my dear friend Mrs. Terri Scott and Laura my HORRIBLE date stories. I do like Tech better though for where I am in life now for curriculum purposes, but my young days at ULM are still precious to me and who I became.
I go to the beach Monday. It's the last big shin dig before school time fun begins. I am excited to see what children God puts in our lives.
Enjoyed the trip. It was nice seeing the Robert's family and we had a nice time in New Orleans.
Travis says that when I look back 10 years from now school will be a blur, but I will be better for it. Lord, I pray so.
Pray for my mother, she keeps having cysts come up? They say it's not cancerous, but I still freak out. They are also seeing signs of osteoperosis (sp?) I detest the aging process. You work hard your whole life, and right when you can slow down just a little bit your body starts giving out. It seems cruel to me, but God has a plan for us all. He uses us for His work and aging it just apart of that process.
I am super thankful to God for Travis. I know that true love is hard to find. When I am with him, I am with my best friend. He does not give himself much credit, but he is AMAZING.
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Dreams
The past has a way of sneaking up on you in your dreams. I am not sure why they say you "dream" about the future. I dream about the past. I always have that or it's just off the wall dreams. It's funny how one little thought can become a dream that lasts all night. I also dream about insecurities and fears (losing someone I love or failing a test). It's odd. I like my dreams though, they are like little movies. I even have the ability during the summers if I wake up in the middle of a dream that I am enjoying, I can quickly go back to sleep and "add" to my movie. I know it all seems a little deep. My brain is always out there in left field.
I am growing to learn to be my own self. I have lived many years of my life, living to make others happy. I still want to, but for once I want to be happy too. If someone can not accept me for who I am, they honestly do not belong. I hate how cliche' that sounds though. I just want to be happy.
I'm ready to go back to work. I got so used to being active with school and work that I don't know how to do nothing.
I'm so easily sidetracked. This lady on TLC sniffs gasoline every 10 minutes because she likes to smell gas. She says the gasoline makes her feel better. HAHA Gracious, I thought my life was stressful.
Travis and I are still doing well. People keep asking me about our future, we have one...but we are enjoying our time now. Living in the present and enjoying where we are in life NoW is important. My dreams are already true with him.
I miss my family, summer has been very hectic and busy for my family. I love them very much!
I go to the beach Monday, and there may be a New Orleans trip this week in store. :)
God is good--Always
I am growing to learn to be my own self. I have lived many years of my life, living to make others happy. I still want to, but for once I want to be happy too. If someone can not accept me for who I am, they honestly do not belong. I hate how cliche' that sounds though. I just want to be happy.
I'm ready to go back to work. I got so used to being active with school and work that I don't know how to do nothing.
I'm so easily sidetracked. This lady on TLC sniffs gasoline every 10 minutes because she likes to smell gas. She says the gasoline makes her feel better. HAHA Gracious, I thought my life was stressful.
Travis and I are still doing well. People keep asking me about our future, we have one...but we are enjoying our time now. Living in the present and enjoying where we are in life NoW is important. My dreams are already true with him.
I miss my family, summer has been very hectic and busy for my family. I love them very much!
I go to the beach Monday, and there may be a New Orleans trip this week in store. :)
God is good--Always
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Searching for Balance
I have been trying to find my balance. I am not much of a person to whine, ok maybe I am, but I have really had to get used to being back in school. I work 40 hours a week (with kids that I adore), have to be a good daughter, sister, aunt, girlfriend, church member, and employee. Oh and I forgot a good student, how could I forget my scholarly duties? However, when I state that I am finding my balance, I am doing it psychologically. I am telling myself that everything that I am doing will pay off in the end. I know that teaching children is in my heart, and it's the smiling faces that I see daily that pushes me to do homework from 3-Midnight.
I am also having trouble finding balance with friends. I never like the feeling of choosing or even questioning who is more important. I love all of my friends and i hope that I convey that. I feel like I am leaving so many people out here lately, and I hate that. I just feel like school has been my primary focus. I keep telling myself that it's worth it.
I do love Tech (online). However the campus stresses me out, I lost my car the other day during advising. I'm so used to being a ULMer that I felt like such a freshman (even though I am a senior) walking around. I couldn't find my car in cold misting rain (in may?!) for at least 15 minutes. It was pathetic. My hair feathers got wet! (PAHAHA) Another thing that makes me happy in an odd way is realizing my friends (yes you stephanie) are just as emotional as I am when they get stressed. I had my crying day yesterday and poor Travis got to hear me have a wahhhh woah is me melt down. I am feeling better though!
I do need tooth picks to keep my eyes open. School did change me, it took away my every other daily naps!
As far as my love life is going, for once I am not searching any longer. My prince charming has arrived with his big brown eyes and super fly dance moves. I did not rename my blog though, for I realize that the searching years are still evident in my life. I am now searching for balance. Pray for me to find some. Oh, and for sleep. Teen teen is not making it off of 5 hours a night. I need 13. HAHA!
I am also having trouble finding balance with friends. I never like the feeling of choosing or even questioning who is more important. I love all of my friends and i hope that I convey that. I feel like I am leaving so many people out here lately, and I hate that. I just feel like school has been my primary focus. I keep telling myself that it's worth it.
I do love Tech (online). However the campus stresses me out, I lost my car the other day during advising. I'm so used to being a ULMer that I felt like such a freshman (even though I am a senior) walking around. I couldn't find my car in cold misting rain (in may?!) for at least 15 minutes. It was pathetic. My hair feathers got wet! (PAHAHA) Another thing that makes me happy in an odd way is realizing my friends (yes you stephanie) are just as emotional as I am when they get stressed. I had my crying day yesterday and poor Travis got to hear me have a wahhhh woah is me melt down. I am feeling better though!
I do need tooth picks to keep my eyes open. School did change me, it took away my every other daily naps!
As far as my love life is going, for once I am not searching any longer. My prince charming has arrived with his big brown eyes and super fly dance moves. I did not rename my blog though, for I realize that the searching years are still evident in my life. I am now searching for balance. Pray for me to find some. Oh, and for sleep. Teen teen is not making it off of 5 hours a night. I need 13. HAHA!
Monday, August 9, 2010
I'm Memaw Gordon
Yawwwwwnn...work starts at 9 today. I woke up at 6ish though to prepare my body for that transition next week. I wish I was getting up for the beach!! LOL ;) I definetly need color. The older I get, I find that my teeny bopper priorities slip away. I would have never been this pasty in August years ago, but I prefer to hermit out of the heat now rather than bake in it. However, I still jam out to VH1,MTV, and CMT every morning just like high school and college. I'm excited about work though, I really love everyone I work with. I'm ready to meet the kiddies now.
I am determined to try to find a house to live in or at least something else. These college kids moving into the apartment complex make me feel old and stressed. They are rolling up with their brand new camaros and hummers and lining their beer bottles in front of their doors. Makes me feel like I live in a trashy place, and I don't. I just live on campus pratically. The other day "Hummer BOY" felt the need to take two parking spots with his "Daddy bought ride". So I rolled my window down and said, "Hey sweetie is that your ride?" He smiled that (Yeah i'm the coolest guy in the world smile) and said "yeah". I said "Really, learn how to drive it then, it doesnt take two parking spots buddy!!" See I felt so mean after that, I almost appologized, but Megan kept me from it. It's never bothered me much in the past, but again I think age is playing a factor. I used to be the creeper neighbor that loved dressing up and sitting on the porch watching the August move in's because I was convinced there was going to be "hot" neighbors. Now I don't want anyone looking at me and get annoyed by the move-in's because i'm usually perched in my dorky pj's on my lsu chair talking on the phone or something. The "Thursday" parties annoy me too. (See this is me sounding memawish). But really do they have to jam their techno boom boom music at midnight? I can't say that I was ever perfect (Praise God for bringing me to my senses), but I was always respectful of sound levels....and I promise you...there was never beer bottles lining my house. That's not decorations people...not little "ornaments" for your balcony.
Ok now that I sound like I belong on "Grumpy old women" I'm headed to go grab breakfast and head to work. I hope everyone has a good day. Love ya'll!!!!
<3
I am determined to try to find a house to live in or at least something else. These college kids moving into the apartment complex make me feel old and stressed. They are rolling up with their brand new camaros and hummers and lining their beer bottles in front of their doors. Makes me feel like I live in a trashy place, and I don't. I just live on campus pratically. The other day "Hummer BOY" felt the need to take two parking spots with his "Daddy bought ride". So I rolled my window down and said, "Hey sweetie is that your ride?" He smiled that (Yeah i'm the coolest guy in the world smile) and said "yeah". I said "Really, learn how to drive it then, it doesnt take two parking spots buddy!!" See I felt so mean after that, I almost appologized, but Megan kept me from it. It's never bothered me much in the past, but again I think age is playing a factor. I used to be the creeper neighbor that loved dressing up and sitting on the porch watching the August move in's because I was convinced there was going to be "hot" neighbors. Now I don't want anyone looking at me and get annoyed by the move-in's because i'm usually perched in my dorky pj's on my lsu chair talking on the phone or something. The "Thursday" parties annoy me too. (See this is me sounding memawish). But really do they have to jam their techno boom boom music at midnight? I can't say that I was ever perfect (Praise God for bringing me to my senses), but I was always respectful of sound levels....and I promise you...there was never beer bottles lining my house. That's not decorations people...not little "ornaments" for your balcony.
Ok now that I sound like I belong on "Grumpy old women" I'm headed to go grab breakfast and head to work. I hope everyone has a good day. Love ya'll!!!!
<3
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Summer 2010
I have honestly had one of the best summers of my life. When people ask me "What'd you do?" I have no real "Adventures" to list besides the beach. But you know what?? I am learning lifes adventures are far from what I thought they were in my previous years. Adventures do not have to be far off destinations filled with a little danger. I have learned that every day of my life is an adventure filled with twists, turns, laughter, and tears. The adventure is not knowing what the next day will hold, but trusting God to know that no matter what I will be just fine in the end. The adventure is my life that he's created for me. The new people I meet, the joy, the sadness, the anger, the nervousness, the lonliness, laughter, smiles...it's all apart of my adventure of finding me. I guess I don't feel like I'm so much "Searching" for anything anymore, but enjoying the litle moments that will eventually create my story of life.
I have spent soo much time with my family the last few months (which does include Megan also). I am so blessed with a job that allows me that time to spend with them. I noticed I didn't take as many pictures as I usually do this year, but I spent more time living in the moment. This is one I think I'll cherish for years though.
Our vacation was a memory of a lifetime, and I really enjoyed our time together. Mostly we do dinners and movie nights. Gracie and I are the best of buddies now. She loves her "Aunt Teen". I wish I could bundle up how cute she is when she "Fakes a fall" just so I say "OHHH MY ARE YOU OK??" Which she proudly giggles and says "I OK!!" . She's so dramatic with the falls....she sticks her hands straight out and wobbles a little squealing like she's scared.. falls..looks up...smiles... and if I don't say "Are you OK?" quickly enough she is like "TEEEEEN" to remind me to say it... haha Mom said she's taken it to a new level and when she says, "Are you Ok?" Gracie will say, "No, then giggle and say I OK!!!" I don't know if it'll be nearly as cute to write about as it is to see... but it's so neat to see her little personality coming out. She also fakes sneezing now, and we wind up saying "Bless you" 19 times. When we really do sneeze though she will hug us and say "Bwess you". It's honestly amazing. Hahaha and she's so good at obeying. One night I saw her chewing and I was like "AHH What is she chewing?!?!" And I said, "Gracie spit it in my hand really quickly!!" Bless her little heart she spit up a half chewed up piece of apple that her momma gave her (which I didn't know)..and what really broke my heart is when she dropped her head and said "Apple". Needless to say I was please she minded and got her more apple..but felt terrible for upsetting her! haha! I am such a proud aunt to see her grow, but my goodness I wish I could bottle her up as a baby for longer. Imagine, next summer, she'll be speaking big long sentences to me! WOW! I can honestly say I want children one day. I'm ready to settle down. I do not want to "rush into anything" but do feel like in my heart I'm ready for committment so I can start that adventure of my life. Most people my age aren't ready for that, but I am an old soul I guess. If that scares anyone away from me, that just means that is not who God intended me to be with.
It was also SUPER FUN being in Ana and Christopher's wedding. Ana's been in my life since 7th grade, and I was super happy when she met him in college. It's neat to see a relationship grow from the beginning to what will be forever. We had a blast dancing the night away. Seriously. I love them to pieces. When the wedding photos get posted to Make Moments I'll post some. Until then here's a peak into the fun. :
I also enjoyed Baton Rouge as a 2nd timer this year for work. It's nice getting to bond with the people I spend 9 months out of the year with. I even gave a presentation with a few of my collegues and gained the respect of well seasoned teachers. (ha some even asked for my email?!) That made me feel amazing seeing as I'm just a teacher's assistant that's in school. It gives me steam to continue to push through school and pursue my dreams.
I had a really good time hanging out with a new friend the other day. It's so nice to meet some people with morals and a personality. The world lacks this too often these days. I guess meeting new people is a good start to a new season. New person to add to new adventures...
I hate endings though. I know it's just a season, but I know how busy my life gets with work (which I wouldn't change). It's just change of any kind brings me a sense of sadness because I always view it as a season of my life that i'll never get back....and what a great season this has been. It's just been so nice to have space and time to be with my thoughts/feelings/family/friends. I'm trying to make an effort to balance work and my social life this year. I can do both. Last year I know I turned into a hermit crab sometimes because I thought that was the responsible thing to do. I hope that little pattern doesn't happen, I want to be responsible, but I want to remain feeling this close to the people I care so much about. I do love me some fall though. :)
Maybe endings are good, new beginnings are always fun. Cheers to new adventures and new memories to be made.
Anyways, I am going to get some sleep.
<3 Love you all forever. :)
I promise you this, I'll always look out for you.
I have spent soo much time with my family the last few months (which does include Megan also). I am so blessed with a job that allows me that time to spend with them. I noticed I didn't take as many pictures as I usually do this year, but I spent more time living in the moment. This is one I think I'll cherish for years though.
Our vacation was a memory of a lifetime, and I really enjoyed our time together. Mostly we do dinners and movie nights. Gracie and I are the best of buddies now. She loves her "Aunt Teen". I wish I could bundle up how cute she is when she "Fakes a fall" just so I say "OHHH MY ARE YOU OK??" Which she proudly giggles and says "I OK!!" . She's so dramatic with the falls....she sticks her hands straight out and wobbles a little squealing like she's scared.. falls..looks up...smiles... and if I don't say "Are you OK?" quickly enough she is like "TEEEEEN" to remind me to say it... haha Mom said she's taken it to a new level and when she says, "Are you Ok?" Gracie will say, "No, then giggle and say I OK!!!" I don't know if it'll be nearly as cute to write about as it is to see... but it's so neat to see her little personality coming out. She also fakes sneezing now, and we wind up saying "Bless you" 19 times. When we really do sneeze though she will hug us and say "Bwess you". It's honestly amazing. Hahaha and she's so good at obeying. One night I saw her chewing and I was like "AHH What is she chewing?!?!" And I said, "Gracie spit it in my hand really quickly!!" Bless her little heart she spit up a half chewed up piece of apple that her momma gave her (which I didn't know)..and what really broke my heart is when she dropped her head and said "Apple". Needless to say I was please she minded and got her more apple..but felt terrible for upsetting her! haha! I am such a proud aunt to see her grow, but my goodness I wish I could bottle her up as a baby for longer. Imagine, next summer, she'll be speaking big long sentences to me! WOW! I can honestly say I want children one day. I'm ready to settle down. I do not want to "rush into anything" but do feel like in my heart I'm ready for committment so I can start that adventure of my life. Most people my age aren't ready for that, but I am an old soul I guess. If that scares anyone away from me, that just means that is not who God intended me to be with.It was also SUPER FUN being in Ana and Christopher's wedding. Ana's been in my life since 7th grade, and I was super happy when she met him in college. It's neat to see a relationship grow from the beginning to what will be forever. We had a blast dancing the night away. Seriously. I love them to pieces. When the wedding photos get posted to Make Moments I'll post some. Until then here's a peak into the fun. :
I also enjoyed Baton Rouge as a 2nd timer this year for work. It's nice getting to bond with the people I spend 9 months out of the year with. I even gave a presentation with a few of my collegues and gained the respect of well seasoned teachers. (ha some even asked for my email?!) That made me feel amazing seeing as I'm just a teacher's assistant that's in school. It gives me steam to continue to push through school and pursue my dreams.
I had a really good time hanging out with a new friend the other day. It's so nice to meet some people with morals and a personality. The world lacks this too often these days. I guess meeting new people is a good start to a new season. New person to add to new adventures...
I hate endings though. I know it's just a season, but I know how busy my life gets with work (which I wouldn't change). It's just change of any kind brings me a sense of sadness because I always view it as a season of my life that i'll never get back....and what a great season this has been. It's just been so nice to have space and time to be with my thoughts/feelings/family/friends. I'm trying to make an effort to balance work and my social life this year. I can do both. Last year I know I turned into a hermit crab sometimes because I thought that was the responsible thing to do. I hope that little pattern doesn't happen, I want to be responsible, but I want to remain feeling this close to the people I care so much about. I do love me some fall though. :)
Maybe endings are good, new beginnings are always fun. Cheers to new adventures and new memories to be made.
Anyways, I am going to get some sleep.
<3 Love you all forever. :)
I promise you this, I'll always look out for you.
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